Are you writing down another “New year’s resolutions” list? Again? And you really believe that this time it’ll work? I mean, come on! Who’d wait till new year’s eve to set a goal in their lives? Admit it my dear, it’s a pretty awful way of fooling yourself. So, let’s do something different this year; let’s be honest, be gentle to ourselves. Instead of pointing out bad things about your life, writ…e down the good sides of your life/self this time. Try to get to know/like yourself more. Expand your limits and if you really have to change something, do it in a humble way, like tuning your perspective a little. You’re neither a business that runs by numbers nor someone who needs a fitness club to lose weight. You are a beautiful human being who only needs lots of good intentions for anew year. Yes, let’s only have good intentions instead of resolutions this year, and you’ll see; it’ll be a happy new year. Promise.

Can you describe yourself in ONE WORD? It is impossible right? We would not even try it but it is always welcome to hear about ourselves from other people. :) here`s something you might be interested.

I am surely not a zodiac girl but this seems pretty interesting because everybody is divided by not the signs but more specifically by their birthdays. I mean, really specific.Yayy!  So anyway, I wanted to share it with you. I hope you have fun! XOXO

ARIES (21 March - 20 April)

21 March - Clear

22 March - Truthful

23 March - Curious

24 March - Plain

25 March - Active

26 March - Reliable

27 March - Starter

28 March - Innocent

29 March - Observer

30 March -  Irreconcilable

31 March - Stubborn

1 April - Earnest

2 April - Idealist

3 April - Strong

4 April -  Determined

5 April - Practical

6 April - Experimental

7 April -  Excited

8 April - Scrupulous

9 April - Excessive

10 April - Brave

11 April - Political

12 April - Social

13 April - Holy

14 April – Traditional

15 April - Humanitarian

16 April - Funny

17 April - Serious

18 April - Defensive

19 April – Strong-willed

20 April - Fighter

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TAURUS(21 April - 20 May)

21 April – Responsible

22 April - Substantial

23 April - Timid

24 April - Protective

25 April - Materialistic

26 April - Decent

27 April - Sufficient

28 April - Loyal

29 April – Melancholy

30 April - Conscientious

1 May - Wry

2 May  - Browser 

3 May - Communicator

4 May - Governess

5 May – Hard-boiled

6 May – Fantastic

7 May - Needy

8 May - Outspoken

9 May - Manful

10 May - Lonely

11 May - Adventurer

12 May - Independent

13 May - Attractive

14 May - Irrepressible

15 May - Daydreamer

16 May - Skillful

17 May - Difficult

18 May - Moving

19 May -  Convincing

20 May - Expressionist

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GEMINI (21 May - 21 June)

21 May - Creative

22 May - Epic

23 May -  Transmitter

24 May - Magnificent

25 May - Courageous

26 May - Maternal

27 May - Unselfish

28 May - Irritable

29 May - Bold

30 May - Quick

31 May - Harsh

1 June - Favorite

2 June - Solvent

3 June - Mincing

4 June - Critical

5 June - Leader

6 June - Visionary

7 June - Entertainer

8 June - Effective

9 June – Persistent

10 June - Changeable

11 June -  Nomad

12 June - Optimistic

13 June - Venturesome

14 June - Stormy

15 June - Seductive

16 June - Avaricious

17 June - Artist

18 June - Pinchpenny

19 June - Provocative

20 June - Charming

21 June - Pleasant

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CANCER (22 June - 22 July)

22 June - Clapper

23 June -  Dazzling

24 June - Illusionist

25 June - Innovator

26 June – Strong

27 June - Defensive

28 June - Emotional

29 June - Nomadic

30 June - Driven

1 July - Disconnected

2 July - Senseless

3 July - Faithful

4 July - Representative

5 July – Showoff

6 July - Ambitious

7 July - Flasher

8 July - Pragmatic

9 July - Confused

10 July - Unbalanced

11 July - Headstrong

12 July – Overbevisende

13 July - Opportunist

14 July - Exaggerative

15 July - Seducer

16 July - Nervous

17 July - Professional

18 July - Sneaky

19 July - Mechanic

20 July - Unstable

21 July - Tragic

22 July - Wavy

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LEO (23 July - 23 August)

23 July - Finisher

24 July – Changeable

25 July - Heroic

26 July - Harbinger

27 July - Determined

28 July - Champion

29 July - Traditional

30  July - Physical

31 July - Humane

1 August - Individual

2 August - Sophisticated

3 August - Cynical

4 August - Guide

5 August - Calm

6 August - Unique

7 August - Decent

8 August – Tricky   

9 August - Sensitive

10 August - Soothing

11 August -  Confirmative

12 August - Conservative

13 August - Absurd

14 August - Cheater

15 August - Imperative

16 August -  Fevered

17 August - Angry

18 August - Sustainable

19 August - Surprising

20 August - Mysterious

21 August - Extrovert

22 August – Experienced

23 August - Perfectionist

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VIRGO (24 August - 23 September)

24 August - Wily

25 August – Uncontrollable

26 August - Helper

27 August - Social

28 August - Talker

29 August - Constructive

30 August - Rough

31 August - Showoff

1 September - Logical

2 September - Workaholic

3 September – Unmixable

4 September - Builder

5 September - Dictator

6 September - Fatalistic  

7 September - Successful

8 September - Meticulous

9 September -  Demanding

10 September - Determined

11 September - Dramatic

12 September - Warrior

13 September -  Lidenskabelig 

14 September - Perceptual

15 September - Administrative

16 September -  Fervent

17 September -  Hardworker

18 September - Secretive

19 September - Goodlooking

20 September - Manager

21 September -  Tasteful

22 September -  Dynamic

23 September - Actual

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LIBRA (24 September - 23 October)

24 September -  Rover

25 September - Satirist

26 September - Patient

27 September - Ambitious

28 September - Harsh

29 September – Reactional

30 September - Goofy

1 October - Inspector

2 October - Sharp

3 October - Stylist

4 October - Incorrigible

5 October - Principled

6 October - Bohemian

7 October -  Opposed

8 October - Romantic

9 October - Impudent

10 October -  Economic

11 October - Relax

12 October -  Affected

13 October - Difficult

14 October - Easygoing

15 October - Actor

16 October - Judge

17 October -  Stable

18 October - Leader

19 October -  Glary

20 October - Modern

21 October - Unique

22 October - Charming

23 October - Contradictive

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SCORPIO(24 October - 22 November)

24 October – Niggling

25 October - Naive

26 October - Organizer

27 October - Distant

28 October - Searcher

29 October - Innovative

30 October - Farsighted

31 October - Careful

1 November - Aggressive

2 November - Transformer

3 November - Materialistic

4 November - Provocative

5 November - Realist

6 November - Energetic

7 November -  Explorer

8 November - Crazy

9 November - Charming

10 November - Moody

11 November - Mysterious

12 November - Charismatic

13 November – Commenter

14 November - Investigator

15 November - Spontaneous

16 November - Bossy

17 November - Bridge

18 November - Cranky

19 November - Foreteller

20 November - Confused

21 November - Chic

22 November - Liberal

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SAGITTARIOUS (23 November - 21 December)

23 November - Disrespectful

24 November - Cheerful

25 November -  Striver

26 November - Special

27 November - Excited

28 November - Flirty

29 November -  Proposer

30 November - Offensive

1 December - Merry

2 December - Dull

3 December -  Handcrafted

4 December -  Unlucky

5 December - Sure

6 December - Selective

7 December - Selfish

8 December - Abandoned

9 December - Fancy

10 December - Ambitious

11 December - Busy

12 December - Narcissist

13 December -  Skillful

14 December - Magnificent

15 December - Mature

16 December - Eccentric

17 December - Chemist

18 December - Big

19 December - Giver

20 December - Parturient

21 December - Blurry

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CAPRICORN(22 December - 20 January)

22 December - Energetic

23 December - Convulsive

24 December - Mixed

25 December - Natural

26 December -  Fearless

27 December - Supporter

28 December -  Smartass

29 December -  Dominant

30 December - Simple

31 December - Esthetical

1 January - Organizer

2 January - Selfish

3 January - Busy

4 January – Formative

5 January - Fixer

6 January -  Sophisticated

7 January - Different

8 January – Phenomenal

9 January - Willing

10 January - Invisible

11 January - Worthy

12 January - Wild

13 January -  Portable

14 January - Outgoing

15 January - Helpless

16 January - Grown

17 January - Hardcore

18 January - Childish

19 January - Dreamer

20 January -  Eager

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AQUARIOUS(21 January - 19 February)

21 January - Leader

22 January - Struggler

23 January - Settled

24 January - Untouchable

25 January – Believer

26 January - Active

27 January - Modern

28 January - Unavoidable

29 January - Offensive

30 January - Ideal

31 January - Poet

1 February – Volunteer

2 February- Qualified

3 February - Real

4 February - Thick

5 February -  Preacher

6 February - Popular

7 February – Dreamer

8 February - Foreteller

9 February - Live

10 February - Sincere

11 February - Relax

12 February - Bridge

13 February - Quick

14 February – Witty

15 February -  Inventor

16 February - Animator

17 February – Stubborn

18 February - Smart

19 February -  Explorer

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PISCES (20 February - 20 March)

20 February - Observer

21 February - Warm

22 February - Universal

23 February -  Steady

24 February - Giver

25 February – Procrastinator

26 February - Awakener

27 February - Real

28 February - Likable

29 February - Trustworthy

1 March - Artist

2 March - Captive

3 March - Designer

4 March – Abstract

5 March - Judge

6 March - Beautiful

7 March - Materialistic

8 March - Extreme

9 March – Astronaut

10 March – Listener

11 March - Sensitive

12 March - Confident

13 March – Irresistible

14 March - Relatively

15 March - Witty

16 March - Inspirable

17 March - Irresponsible

18 March - Unsure

19 March - Insist

20 March - Player

(Source: jonottohoe)

Allah uzun ömür versin, babannem hep der ki; ‘Televizyonu dikey koyup izlemekle kretaif olunmaz. Öyle tasarım ancak başını önüne eğdirir’. Ben bu lafı ilk duyduğum zamanlarda Endüstriyel Tasarımcı olucam diye geziniyorum ortalıkta, büyüklerim de ne yapsın destekliyorlar beni..Fikrimi çok değiştirdiğim oldu ondan sonra, ama tasarımcı orada kaldı. Takı tasarımcısından tutun da garip icatlar tasarlamaya kadar tasarım içerisinde ne kadar alt dal varsa atlamışlığım vardır. Babannem sevmezdi tabii bendeki bu ne istediğini bilmez tavırları ama tasarımcılık ile yakaladığım istikrarı da göz ardı etmezdi hiç. Çok emekleri vardir benim kişisel gelişimimde. Hem o hem de dedem.. Dedem babanneme nazaran daha hassas ve üzerime titrer bir yapıdaydı. Hatırlıyorum bir defasında sırtımdan soğuk vurmasın diye hizmetçimize kapıdaki anahtar deliğini koli bandıyla kapattırmıştı. Şimdi şimdi anlıyorum tabii; eh biraz abartmış. Ama akıllı adamdır. Bana fotoşopu, kalır korekşını falan hep o öğretti. Arşivinde her türlü softver bulunan cinsten bir nörddür kendisi. Pek yargılayıcı bir yapısı da yoktur. yanlış da yapsan, güler geçer seninle. Ama babannem öyle mi; hep büyük lafları, deneyimlerinden derlediği deyişleri vardır onun. Lafını ortaya söyler ve çekilir. Bazen sen sormadan söylemez de. Ama yargıcıdır. Doğruyu göstermeden doğrusunu yapmanı bekleyecek kadar da yüksek beklentileri olan cinsten…Hiçbir zaman son söz sizde kalmaz, her zaman lafınızı alır, daha yüksek bir başka rafa taşıyıverir. Bir keresinde dedim ki ona; babanne, sesin sözlerin de tıpkı atasözleri gibi, belki sen de ilerde atalarımız olursun. Bana döndü dedi ki; Sözler suya atılan taşlara benzer. Evet ordadırlar ama onu ordan, dipten çıkarıp bir deliği kapatmadığın sürece, yanyana dizilmiş süslü harflerden öteye gitmezler. Bu yüzdendir ki, onları söyleyenin de bir ehemmiyeti yoktur.  Anlamadım tabii o zamanlar ne demek istediğini. Çünkü o zamanlar öyle bir yaştayım ki, benim için Prusya ile Rusya’nın farkı Yılmazlar Pastanesi ile Özyılmazlar Pastanesi arasındaki gibi birşey. Geçen gün, hayatta bilgiden çok pratiğin önemini düşündüm yine ve hatırlattım kendisine ne kadar manalı laf ettiğini, babannem bu, durur mu, döndü yine bana dedi ki; ‘Sen boşver manalı atasözlerinden hayat dersi aramayı, senin işine yaracak en güzel atasözü ‘Bütün Mirasımı  sana bırakıyorum’ dur’.

You, damn clock that gnaws my life by every second of it;

By your gabbling tick in my mind,

Are you bringing me face to face with my own misery?

Or, is it me that condemns myself to as silent as I hear you?

Ş.Z.T 2008

I’m in exile…

Like an immigrant who is deported

From the land that his life is in

To the one that he was born in

I’m in exile…

Like a worried looking woman

in a foreign train station.

I’m in exile…

Like a little boy who sits on a sidewalk,

Covering his cold bastard hands

Blowing back his tobacco smelly hair

I’m in exile..

With a truelife in a suitcase,

From other lives to my own..

Ş.Z.T 10.10.08